For a time now, I've felt lost within myself,
not knowing how it feels and unable to decide.
I feel alone, even with myself,
unable to feel anything but emptiness.
There is a yearning within my soul,
a feeling of complete and utter nothingness.
For a moment, I thought I found myself,
for a while, I felt happiness.
One day, though, the melancholy was back,
as was the infinite sadness.
I know I am destined to be sad for eternity,
yet I can't comprehend why that is.
Is it because I am a bad person,
or is a greater force at work here?
Can you see me going down?,
I'm screaming out loud!
The fear of God is within me
and I feel helpless to him.
Help me please
before I lose myself.
