Why Cant I Be Like Them?

I'm always looking at all the other kids,
and I always think to myself.. why cant I be like them?
why cant I be happy&always smiling? Daddy I wanna
be just like them.
pain free, stress gone, tears covered, bruised disappeared.
Daddy why is everything like this? tell me did I do
sometime wrong why everything fell apart like this?
Dad you don't even know! I wanna be like all the other
kids so bad. I love seeing others smiling, giggling, making jokes about each other.. Dad why cant I be a regular kid, a regular teenager? I know I cant let my
tears&pain show because when I do everyone thinks I'm going insane, But really I'm going insane for you- - -
I wish you were still here to make me happy.
To make me laugh so hard like you used to.
Dad if you were still here I wouldn't have one single
negative thought in my head, I wouldn't have any of these bruises on my body, no pain in my eyes, no stress on my mind.
Damn God took away my one&only,
Because he knew you were the only one who made me happy&kept me smiling
I love you daddy</3