You took me in your embrace,
When I was too scared to try again.
You told me that I had to starting living my life,
When all I wanted to do is curl up and die.
You feel the deep sadness within me,
By only hearing my voice.
You said I do not have to talk,
You were the first to give me that choice.
You told me just to take my time,
That we will always have next week.
There are many, many times,
When you would just let me weep.
You somehow make me smile,
Through my heartache and insecurities,
You keep telling that you are all mine,
And what happened was a mistake,
Never to be repeated again.
Then why do I keep feeling,
That something is wrong?
When I lie at night,
And keep wondering why?
Are you still looking?
Are you still on the dating sites?
Why I can not let this rest.
The past is after all the past!
I still feel the hurt,
The deep sadness,
And disappointment,
Because this was something I had not expected.
For I truly believed you were as committed to me,
As I am to you.
You need to know and understand,
I could never share you,
No matter how hard I tried.
I would rather let you go,
For to share you would surely kill me.
You know me so well,
And I just how deeply I love you.
You captured my heart,
From the very first moment we met.
You took a look inside of me,
And found the part of me,
That I so tried to hide!
You did not laugh,
Nor did you leave.
You brought laughter
And love back into my life,
And showed me that there was so much more to life,
These were all the things,
I had needed for so long.
Thank you for being you,
For being so patient,
While I desperately fight with these moments,
The moments when all I do is question,
Question why things have happened,
And wonder if your love for me is true.
Yet,
You are the one that taught me to love again,
And to believe that I do have something to live for.
For I know I must drive you crazy,
With all this ever lasting questioning.
I truly love you more than life itself,
So please do not give up on me.
Your forever Blonde
