Nothing is going to help me
when the moon and stars align
that still wont help me.
nothing is going to help me
without having his arms around me
without having his lips on mine.
without having his soft voice in my head.
without having him with me
beside me.
holding me
telling me its going to be okay
life isnt going to be worth it.
becuase 180 days is too long.
too long without him.
how am i going to wake up without him?
how can i sit down and watch tv likes everythings okay?
how can i go to work and put on the perfect lil act?
how am i going to live without him?
the fact is i cant.
i cant live without him.
i cant wakeup alone.
i cant go to sleep without talking to him first.
i cant go to work without knowing im seeing him today.
i cant do this anymore.
how can anyone do this?
i feel so lost in my world.
like nothing is worth it anymore.
i miss him so much.
i love him.
if i could bail him out- i would.
i would sell my clothes car and house to bail him out.
just to see that beautiful smile on his face.
just to see him put his arms around me and tell me-
everythings okay now that im out.
becuase in the end.
without him. im nothing...
