This life that I live behind a pretend smile
I wish it weren't mine sometimes I feel I'm in denial
Through heartache, disappointments, lies and tears
More and more everyday they come alive, my fears
I fear to care, to love and most of all to trust
So for now I pretend it is nothing more than lust
I don't feel safe and I always seem to expect the worst
Deep down inside I believe my love life has been cursed
Is it ok to want to try to fill that emptiness?
Or do I continue down this road of simple loneliness?
Will I ever feel again a love so strong?
Knowing that it is exactly where I belong
Will someone ever look into my eyes that way again?
And will I see it in their eyes that it is real not pretend?
Will I ever feel the warmth in my heart from ones touch?
Will I be able to handle someone loving me that much?
Do I deserve to be cared for, truly from ones soul?
Do I trust that one day that love wont take a toll?
To love and be loved again I would be so sincere
But will it happen? Will I manage to get over this fear?
