Not anymore

I used to look at the mirror and smile for no reason
I used to stare at the ceiling not knowing that im daydreaming
I used to have happy thought that can never be bought
But now that youre gone
I cant do all these thing anymore
I just smile to hide my tears
I just smile to hide my fears
Im hurt.
More than you know.
Im dying.
deep down inside my soul.
im too hurt to love again.
it will take me along time
to love again, to trust again.
But Ill forget about you,
I know I will.
It might take me years to do that
But I know I will.
I am a strong girl,
I will not kill myself,
I will not blame myself
Why im feeling this way.
Because I know, and so does everybody.
They know what and who caused this pain.