To the girl that will replace me

Your smile will brighten up his day because he loves to see you smile. He'd rather have you curl up in your sweats with your hair a mess, then get ready for him to come over and watch a movie. He'll tell you you're beautiful when you wake up, because to him, you will be. He'll sit there and wonder why your hand fits so perfectly in his. He'll kiss you softly, with his perfect lips, and slightly close his eyes. But, he'll want to open his eyes sometimes to glance at yours. When he jokes around with you, he wants you to be able to joke around back. He likes that you don't take everything seriously. He secretly likes when you slightly tickle him on his belly, even though he tells you to stop. He will tell you not to kiss him in public, but he really wants you to. He really wants people to know that you consider each other soul mates. He's going to get mad sometimes, and he's stubborn. So, sometimes he'll wait for you to say sorry. He doesn't want to break your heart or hurt you. He wants to pull you closer. He never wants to let you go. When he tells you he misses you, he means it. When he tells you that you mean the world to him, he means it. He wants you two to last forever. He doesn't want you to end, he will never want you to end. He'll want you to spend the summer nights in his arms, the cold winter days, holding his hand and the hard days, by his side. Eventually, he'll open up to you because he trusts you. He loves you. He loves it when you call him cutie. He loves it when you call him baby. He loves it when you tell him you love him. He loves conversations when his cheeks hurts after talking to you. He loves it when he wakes up thinking about you, falls asleep thinking about you. He will never want anybody to replace you because he loves you. He loves everything about you. When he tells you he loves you, he means it. Don't take him for granted. Don't let him go. If he leaves, fight for him. Maybe he needs you to fight for him, to prove that you love him too. Don't push him away.

Because I did.

I'm sorry I screw everything up.

February 9, 2008