For you my dear, my heart still beats
and it is so hard to sleep when your stuck in my head
all the things you've said and done
how much i love you and how much you hurt me
i just want it all to go away
i just want it to stop
i want my heart to stop breaking every time i hear your name
i want the pain to go away for even just a day
i cant go on...not without you
yet it is what you did that has made me push away from you
love is a big word and this i know
yet without a doubt i can say i loved you so!
stopping is impossible (and yes i know impossible is a big word to)
but somehow i have made it this far...how i do not know!
i want it all to go away
this i cannot say enough
but it is too late, it has gone to far and we cant go back
no matter how much we wish it to
i miss you so much i want to end it all
cause i know that here on earth there is no way we will be together again
but in heaven there may be a chance
or i will sin enough to join you in hell cause it looks like thats where we're going
so love i will meet you there,
sooner than you think for i cannot continue this way
there is nothing in my life to look forward to,
my once dreams of going to college having a baby and helping people
has all gone down the drain....i dont want them anymore
one thing you also need to learn is that what i say is true
no matter what is done or said we cannot be together
i know i will still love you and you know that all to well
thats why you wont stop trying but please for me....do it
goodbye....and know that you will always have my love...
i will see you in a better place for hell will be enjoyable for it will be a place where two sinners can be together forever...and if god will let us maybe we could have cloud 9 to ourselves for a few days...... to you my love....i fare thee well...and cheers the hope of tomorrow....
