Painted Red

It is everywhere I look
I can't run away
No where to turn
So I jump in
Let myself fall away
Get lost, all wrapped up
In something so simple;
A name, a color or an emotion
I believe it is my emotion
The power that drives me
People say I let it run to high
Guide me when I know I should try
Its in my skin
The color of my blood
I let it flow to try and let go
it always comes back
Like it all mean to be
A love that has cause me pain,
Pain I endure in the latest hour
No one knows
They all believe its just a color
That someday I will see I the same way
I know their wrong,
I'm not ready to let go
I won't,can;t break free
I love my emotions
They let me know I'm real
I pain a picture in my mind;
A girl all alone,sitting in her room
The walls painted in red
When will she let go
And dream of a much happier place?
I fear I'm this girl
Living the life painted in red
But what about that blade
Just like my broken heart
It hurts and it cuts deep
Yet here I am,walking around
Laughing, yelling
Hiding it all
Placing my life, love and trust
In my emotions painted red.
They look at me as if u never changes
The mask I wear is so easy to see
A way that rises
Whenever someone gets close
My life can't be lived this way
I need to find a brush
To repaint my life
And bury my emotions
Let them live in a dream
But how when that dream is me
A different way to view my life painted red
What do they know?
Their life is yet to be painted
They have time to fight
For a better life
A different view to try to escape
No longer do they
Try,push, figure a way
To get me to believe
Red is only a color
There is nothing more than
What we can see
But what about how we feel?
Alone, left in darkness
To get lost in your dreams
Wake to tears flowing down my cheek
I watch as they fall onto that blade
It breaks to pieces
As my tears start to grow
The water rises
My life, emotions painted red dissolving
I did it, found a way
To break free
So there I lay, Motionless
With my life, emotions unpainted
Forever I dream of my life painted red.