Dead or Alive?

Enough already I can't take it anymore
Am dead already if this is what you ask for
Stop it please I have no power to strive
Am alive but dead, dead but alive
What did I do to you to torture me like this
I heard love is a paradise for me it's a mess
You just disappeared without any word
It becomes your habit you are being cold
Disappearing has become your favorite hobby
I wonder if you really want me to be your hubby
Maybe this is my reward for loving you
As some believe love is a hell I think it's true
Maybe love is your tool to make me suffer
I guess love was created to punish one's another
And now I don't know what to do or what else to say
But what I know is that I am drying up through the days
I will tell you one more thing before I end this poem
Since you are the only one who gave my heart home
My feelings won't change whatever you do
Torture me, punish me I will only love you
So enough already I can't take it anymore
Am dead already if this is what you ask for
Stop it please I have no power to strive
Am alive but dead, dead but alive