I stand there with people I know, and love;
But I feel alone as I watch you.
You are leaving me, and I can never see you again.
If I had known that the last time I saw you was the last, it would have lasted a lifetime.
If I had know that the last time i saw you smile was the last time, I would have taken a picture.
So many times I wish I could say I have a lasting, physical memory, but it's not true.
You leave me here, and rain starts pouring.
I stand and cannot even throw my rose, as my body is frozen in grief.
Why must you leave me alone in the world?
Where have you gone? Why can't I follow?
You promised forever, why did you lie?
I sigh in disbelief as I remember that day.
I saw the car, why didn't I tell you.
I saw it, why didn't I shout, scream, throw myself in front?
Why am I still here without you?
I told you not to cross, you should have listened.
For now I have to stand and watch as they lower the coffin into the hard, cold, dark earth. As I watch them lowering you.
