I dont know how to explain this
but its hurting me bad.
I keep trying to look past this feeling
but im feeling so sad.
How can i talk to you
when im not sure of what to say..
Im just so unsure of everything
because i've never felt this way
Things change.. im wondering
what going to happen to me and you?
like if i tell you my my insercurites
would you view me as a fool?
For not trusting in what we have..
for not loving you with a complete heart..
I cant even bring myself to explain
because im afriad what i say can split us apart
While im writting, Im thinking just what i should do
SHould i loose my insercurites and just try to love you.
You told me more than i could handle
I thought that i could take it in
but damn yo maybe im better off being just a friend...
see what i mean?
You even told me..
"I dont think you wanna know"
But MAN i insisted
and while you resisted
I told you that i was women enough to take it
that i could control...
WOW, I wasnt
because i think of it all now
and i have doubts
but im just afriad to let it all out..
I want to love you but im scared
im afriad that everything you told me
WAIT
everything i forced out of you
everything you tried to keep away
to protect me from getting hurt
will in the end hurt me..
because im hurting
from keeping all of this in....
and maybe ill find the courage to one day
speak without a fake smile
because im in denial
but promise me that when i find the
women in me
and i confront you
Hold me
and dont ever let me go
because THATS what im afriad of...
