Deep emotions and broken smiles

I've never felt this hopeless feeling before
Why don't you stop it? I don't want this anymore
You said "I want new friends, but promise you won't be alone"
Then you stopped talk to me, never called me on the phone

So broken promises is left behind
And now pain starts to fill my mind
I'm trying to sleep without your lullaby
Try but can't, just hear your good bye

Staring at a picture, a picture of you
Starting to cry, what shall I do?
Memory times comes back to me
It was you who found me, you sat me free

All my smiles break, just like my heart
How did this happen, where did it start?
Can I ever love again? And where will this end?
Can I make it through this, without you as my friend?

I'm drowning in emotions and when I scream
It's coming closer, I think "Wake up from this dream!"
The dark is around me and there is no light
I'm holding my breath when it squeezes me tight

Why do you leave me without your warming hand?
Why is our moments blown out in the sand?
I keep asking me this but there's no reply
And if it would it probably be another lie

*This was some of the hardest times in my life... hope you don't be threatened in the same way*