I wait for you......

Quietly i patiently sit and i wait for you.

It's two in the morning. I move about the house, like a drifter through a strange town.
I see all these pictures of two people smiling and there was once a bit of happiness in their life.
Now i look again, i look into the future and i see two complete strangers.
Quietly, i patiently wait for you.
I walk down the hall to our room. I look at the side of your bed where you lay. I look at the side where i used to lay. I don't get much sleep anymore.
The memories haunt my sweet dreams. I smell you on the pillows. I smell your aftershave in the bathroom. You're aroma. The most sensual smell i have ever smelt.
But i know you no more.
Quietly i patiently wait for you. But i know you're not coming home.
You haven't been home in four years. I'm still living in denial.
The flowers to my life have died. The pictures have collected dust. The house has gotten dark.
I'm alone and, occasionally, i realize that.
But i still love you.
Quietly i patiently get in my car and drive to a sacred, quiet place.
I get out of my car, and the mist of the rain falls on my head leaving it's mark that i breeched the territorial barrier.
I kneel down and lay my dead flowers on your grave, a tear falls, but a smile is on my face.
And i say the words i say every day.
~~~~"I miss you"~~~~