Mom

Lying here asleep
in my bed
with visions of
you caressing my head

How I wish
this could be true
You here with me
And I'm with you

Why did I loose you
What went wrong
These visions are all I have
When you are gone

Will you please
Make me see
Why you thought it was right
For you to abandon me

I woke up one night
And the baby was crying
I didn't want to believe
That you were lying

So I took the baby
And calmed her down
I thought that you
Were only up town

The next day I woke up
I was so ashamed
The anger ran through my body
Like out of control flames

Then weeks go by
And I don't hear from you
I got so frustrated
And worried too

A few months go by
And I get a call from you
You said that you love me
And that you'll see me soon

My biggest mistake
Was believing you
After all of the things
That you put me through

Pretty soon Ill
Be fifteen
With maturing beauty
You've never seen

Through the years
The baby's turned three
And she is searching for someone
to call Mommy

Lucky for her
I am here
And loosing her
Is my biggest fear

You've been out of my life
For way to long
I've been relying on god
To keep me strong

You are my mother
And I am your child
But between us
Are hundreds of miles

This isn't how
Its supposed to be
Your not supposed
to be running from me

Between me and other kids
There's a big difference
I have grown up
Without my parents

Now I am sitting in the dark
And I'm thinking of my past
I wander how long
These memories will last

Some of its your problem
Some of its mine
Straiten up your life
And well be fine

I have been hurt
For way to long
Because of the things
That you have done wrong

Will you tell me
What I need to know
Maybe then
My feelings will grow

The bible says to
Honer your mom and dad
But what if they have both
made you so sad

Would you want to
Truly forgive them
Only to watch the pain
Over again

I don't know
What comes first in your life
But the thought that its me
Would only be a lie

I wander if you think of me
I wander if you cry
When you look in the mirror
Is there guilt in your eyes

I'm walking away
From the troubles in my life
There is room for you
Here at my side

So Ill take your hand
And you can take mine
Well walk away from
The awful times

We will go foreword
And we wont look back
A lot of good memories
is what we can have

But somebody has to change
and its not going to be me
You'll have to change
And together well be