I don't want you to be mad at me

I know that I failed you,
Now i hang my head.
I took it all in,
Every word that you said.
Now that I've wound my way
Through darkened good-byes,
I can't help but see you there,
Locked in my mind.
But still, even now, I'm entrenched in my lies.
Did you really care?
God, I hope that I'm right.
So pleas hit me back,
And tell me the truth.
I'm over my death,
So can I please talk to you?

*For Ryan, a good friend that I didn't truly realize.