The thoughts behind the actions

Fighting and bleeding it happened again
never said i was done. i thought i was done.
Determined and shaking, leaves blow in the wind
it's over, I'm done. why can't they be done?

Finding my body, now thinking is clear
And I've gotta get anywhere but here.

Flying and watching, drifting unseen
thought i was gone. you act like I'm gone.
Broken, scarred, insane as 15
am i still gone? they say I'm not gone...

Finding my body, now thinking is clear
It's good to escape, but I've got to stay near.

Vengeful and cold, holding a threat
feeling dead numb. didn't used to be numb.
Smashing and screaming, but it's not out yet.
work hard to be numb, can't believe that I'm numb.

Finding my body,now thinking is clear
Holding the build up, tier after tier.

Kneeling and burning, thatnk god I'm alone.
still not quite dead. i want to look dead.
Running like mad, reduced to straight bone.
so close to dead, can't you see that I'm dead?

Finding my body, now thinking is clear,
and a hell of a lot crazier than how things appear.

One last search for body, one last thought is clear:
What you call life is f-cked up, and I'm out of here.