Somedays

Somedays i wish i was still yours, that i could say i love you, knowing what i was saying was true, somedays i wish things could be different, that circumstances weren't what they were, that you weren't you and i wasn't me, that we could start again although i have him and you have her, we had our chance it disappeared now I'm happy, but then the other night fell asleep holding you tight, was the only decent sleep id had in weeks, things felt right, what else went on that night, i don't remember please tell me it wasn't real, then today of all days you say things to make me question what is real in my relationships, i hate you one minute then find myself wishing things could be different, someday maybe this'll change.