Leukemia2(my love)

DEAR MYSELF: After his passing,my life fell into apart like little puzzle pieces.That morning felt like forever,
that afternoon felt like eternity,that night felt like i had died. At school i don't smile,i keep stuff bottled inside me.I hate that everyone looks at me like they care about me and what had happened to you..I cannot stand out in the rain,i cannot walk in the rain,i cannot sit on the floor and our fire is never burns. Tear drops fall down like rain droplets.My left arm bleeds so bad.Little scabs on my arm spells out your name. Razor blades run through my wrist like a fish in the sea!

MY LOVE:I want you home,i want to be with you.After your death i cant seem to face the world head on. You always told me to be happy, but honestly how can i be happy that your gone, knowing that you cant come back to me!I miss your hand on the side of my face wiping all the tears away.Why did they have to find it so late? If we would have known about it a little sooner maybe we could have saved you just maybe...i want you here with me so i can hold you tight so i can protect you from all the evil..I don't know what to do anymore the sun does not shine on my side of town.i have not yet visited your grave.I MISS YOU SWEETHEART!!

DEAR US:We used to walk in the rain,We used to wrestle in the mud,.I loved your smile,i loved your eyes, i loved how you can still love me with all the stupid stuff i do,knowing you was one of the best things that has ever happened to me.After this decided to take your life mine has just fell to the floor.

my love please come back to me.On Valentines Day i could not look at couples without crying..i miss the days when people looked at us like we were so perfect..i remember when you and i did not buy each other anything but we still managed to smile..we held each other all the time we held each other so close.
know this is the worst day of my life..the day that your mother showed up at my door in total tears...my students at school wants me to open up and read my stuff to read what i write.. like they don't already know that your the one I'm writing about

BABE:I'm sorry i have not yet seen you
one day i got sick of being under everyones attention so i ran out of the class, than i ran right out of the building,as i looked back there was my teacher right behind me..man can he run fast..i was finally out of breath when i saw the sign..the sign to the cemetery
i stopped and it started to rain..it was like you were happy that i was here that i was finally here to see you...i ran to your grave where i collapsed right on top of you hugging you...holding you...crying...i started talking to you...I WANT YOU TO COME BACK TO ME BABE IF I CAN I WOULD TAKE YOUR PLACE!!!!

my teacher called my parents and called yours when they came and saw me.......it was like you had planned it all out that my family and your family can actually sit down and help each one of us gradually open up..i want to let you know that i love you and i will be with you one day...babe.....i love you...!!!