Now I'm hoping one day I'll get out of my head for long enough
To understand you, and the way your thoughts molded into butterflies
Land on my garden, on the larger than life flower displays
Only to discover that they flew away the second they sensed my shadow
Blocking the superficial sun above
But it's not easy making amends to everyone who never cared
Trying to place myself on their hands
So I can get a better view of my feet in their over sized shoes
You're oblivious to the fact
That everyone around you is knocking on your door
Trying to introduce new lines to make you open your mind
And let them in the deep crevices
It's quite unfair that my words have still not made a dent on your locks
Forcing them and bending so to disallow them to ever close again
And when you tell me I feel sick
You scare me half to death each time
All the locks I found copies of inside my own soul
Only seem to work for a while until you decide to change them again
And I am left wondering how it got so bad
You promise you will never leave me alone
And then offer words to calm my mind in the worst of it all
But when I desperately try to do the same
You say you cannot lean on anyone, must do this on your own
All I really wanted was to find a new way
To get out of our little heads
But you won't allow for that even if I spend the rest of my life begging
I still don't understand what I'm doing sitting beside you
As you confess that it had never hurt this bad
I wish for once you'd understand how hard I'm trying
To find a way to you
Because I'm so tired of standing behind closed doors
And looking from the outside in
The hardest thing in this world is seeing someone you love hurt
And knowing that there's no way to help them
Left only to see as they break apart before your eyes
But I can't surrender yet
Because my promises to myself are deeper than your plans
And whatever you wish to do in this life
I hope you know that I never intend on giving up on you
