My Untimely Demise

As I looked up in the sky
The stars twinkled above
I was ashamed
Of the things I once loved.
My mother stroking my hair.
My father telling jokes.
My sister crying for me
When I hated my life so.
My head, I then shook,
The images out of my mind.
Then I reminded myself:
What I was doing was right.
My life was a waste.
My purpose, a lie.
The lord made my life hell.
And had no reason why.
As I looked down below
To the bustling streets
I was about to jump
And my demise I would meet.
I took a step towards my fate.
Then it happened all the same.
I started to fall.
A man was to blame.
As I fell, I realized
This isn't what must be.
I never wanted this.
Well not really.
I was going to die.
And this was true.
Don't ever do
What I had to do.