I cant describe the way i feel
I cant control how i act
I try to take control over it
I cant
You tell me one thing
I believe another
The words all get mixed up
I cant understand what u mean
I feel so much pain
Also alot of guilt
See these feelings r so strong
They appeared the night i was try to be killed
I knew i wouldn't be the same
In that parking lot i left my hopes dreams and everything
Its like a pinata
You take a bat to knock out the candy
Thats just what they did
They knocked out everything i had in me
They also broke my heart
Your friends try to tell u thats not true
But u know
How u change and how u feel
I cant understand
Y people didn't want me
I didn't try to do anything wrong
This is y u never trust anyone as much as u did
Cuz u will loose in the end
I'm not afraid to hid
I disappear when i don't feel safe
I feel all brokened up inside
My friends tell me cutting is stupid
Ya i know
But how else will the pain get release
When u have so much inside
I don't really fit in with other people
Cuz i get scared away
When they talk to me
I shake my head and go along
I'm not really listen
I'm mind is in another direction
I try to listen
But see my head is full of memories
That makes it so hard to try
I try as hard as i can
But i believe
If they went through what i have been
It makes trying even harder
I'm scared today
With my mind in the past
I'm hiding in my room
From myself
I need to be strong
If not for me
Then for someone else
