A place that never was

Leave me be,
oh demon inside of me
am i such a graceful victim
your pleasure, my torture

so go away now
or shall i want you to stay
you are my only company
these days, your rapture

but if you go,
please close the door quietly
lock it with three chains
so that no one ever comes in

because when you're gone
there would be nothing
nothing good and nothing bad
oh how i would prefer this

when all has left
i wouldn't need to cling onto
onto things which will refuse
onto dreams which will fall

when lights are out
i wouldn't see the dark hole
in which i am falling in

if there was no sound
no sound that i breathe
there would be nothing to remember
to remember that i life

and if all life was cried out
there would be nothing
no smile, no tears
there won't be love, where never was

welcome to my house
it's cold and empty
a place that never was

blow out these candles
i don't need that kind of light
which shines just on my scars
want to see nothing, no more pain

blow them out gently,
with your cold breath
which makes me shiver all night long
i won't sweat anymore, freeze no more

put more bricks into the windows
still there are some rays
which remember me, remember...
all my nightmares, all my dreams

leave me be, oh please do so
your scorn is unbearable for me
is it that amusing to see
see me running into spears

oh and take all my belongings with you,
i don't need them here, at this place
where i will remain,
without a motion, without emotion

welcome to my house
here won't be love, where never was
here won't be anxiety
where ever was

it seems like you wanna stay
too much comfort is here inside
for you, who wants me down
your smirk reminds me

you won't leave until i die
promised yourself to me
but oh demon, why me?
these ugly pictures will fall

but if I leave...
you would have to face it
the nothingness inside
no more torture, no more life

oh and i will go
i swear to all angels
to an unpredictable future
leave for changes, oh angels

i grap my heart and part from you
locking all doors with three chains
so you won't ever come out
won't remember myself

oh farewell my house
i'll go for my peace,
wherever it is

the colours of this painting are unclear
i can't see it's end, but i would bear
the whole world to find it

i leave you now
i make you become

a place that never was