Let me forget

How is it that so much time has passed
and yet so little has changed
why am i still bruised in my cast
why is my heart still deranged?

how is it possible that day in and day out
im haunted by what i must face?
i can't understand; i must let it out
something needs to change

i don't want to wake up in a freezing cold sweat
with my breath caught deep in my chest
i want so badly to just forget
erase these memories dear god i protest!!!

i follow your ways and i go to church
that must grant me some leeway
I've been baptized and had my rebirth
so please just take it away

piercing needles sit in my room
so many nights they sat at my wrist
i wrap myself up in a small dark cocoon
it seems so hard to resist

i don't want to have fear; the days have passed
and my feeling is yet to return
one day ill finally be released at last
perhaps even heal from the burn

i crave love that is like no other
but somehow i always push it away
this feelings i wish to no longer harbor
my heart has wandered astray

damn it to hell i need it to be gone
im so tired of dealing with the hate
inside me is a quick ticking bomb
started by the man who made me irate

yet still i sit in quiet surprise
that i haven't exploded quite yet
angrily i'll wipe the tears from my eyes
begging the lord to let me forget