Hate

Hating you.
Hating me.
Hating life.
Hate you for what you did,
Hate you for breaking my heart,
Hate you for causing this pain.
Hate that I love you,
Hate that I can't let you go,
Hate that you're always in my mind,
Hate that I can't forget.
Hate life with its routine -
Neverending, all consuming,
Overpowering, mind numbing.
Hate that nothing ever goes right,
Hate the s**t life throws at me,
Hate that I can't find happiness.
Hate, hate, hate -
Its all I can feel,
Overwhelming me, smothering me,
Killing me slowly.
Hate that I hate so much.
It scares me.