Pain and Horror

I know what I'm doing is horrible and possibly even disgusting, but I don't care.

I go to my kitchen and grabbing a knife from the drawer and place it on my skin,

From far away it seems I hear a scream, and then I feel shocking pain,

I look down at my wrist and I see the bright red blood flowing out of my body and rushing to the floor,

I scream and collapse to the floor, asking myself what have i done.