Have you ever felt something that felt so wrong, but somehow you knew that it was right? That you were supposed to be feeling that way? And maybe not wrong in a normal sense of right and wrong as we learned as young kids - but a much different kind of wrong. A wrong that goes beyond what an expert would tell us is the correct definition. A wrong that feels so wrong only because it's so right. And the only reason why it feels right is because it's something so unfamiliar. It's something that we have never felt before. We're not quite sure how to handle it because we're used to something that's completely opposite. It just feels wrong - but in a right way. This wrong feels so right because perhaps for once in our life, we want to believe that things are going to be different. That things won't always be defined in our lives by the cliche definition that the world makes us believe. A wrong that makes us feel hopeful, possibly even pure, a wrong that we want to feel forever - even though we know that forever wouldn't come close to being long enough. This feeling is something stronger than we've ever felt before - but why do we feel so weak? It's a weakness that is terrifying, overwhelming, and it scares us to death. Our first instinct would be to run - but we cannot run away from weakness - we sometimes have to fight it out - or maybe just run along side of it to see where it might take us. It could bring light to that flame in our heart that has been burning out for years - or bring to life a passion that should be gracefully felt out. Leaving that passion unattended would burn the flame to its own self-destruction. This passion is temptation that is silenced by a ray of hope - and sometimes this ray of hope is dimmed by issues of trust that have troubled us in our past. But we must learn to believe that our heart will not always be handled as it was before. That we will feel hands of a gentle and comforting nature instead of always rough and controlling. A pair of hands wrapped around our heart with a sign saying, "I will handle-with-care", and during the times when we cannot see him, our hearts can feel him there. I feel him there.
