It hurts my heart just thinking about it.
You had a whole life ahead of you.
I never had a doubt that you would feel pain.
You are in a much better place now.
I'm missing you so much.
I lost what I didn't know was good.
You were always there for me and I didn't see it.
You had such a big heart, good soul, always busy, knew what you wanted in life and went for it.
Ill never understand the reason why you left.
It's true what they say you don't know what you lost until its gone forever.
This reality is hard to believe.
Without you, I'm weak.
There are a lot of questions I want to know why this happened?
Why couldn't it be me to take that place?
Why did you drive so fast?
What was going through your mind at the time?
The memories we shared I won't forget.
I'll never forget the talk we had in my car, the sweet emails we had, the way you were to all your friends, they called you big brother.
You carefully watched all your friends get toed up while you were the sober one most of the time.
Ryan, you were very hard worker, I must admit.
I hope all of it paid off.
You worked hard so much I think its time to rest and dream all you want.
Till next time buddy I'll see you when I get there!
I miss you so much already.
Knowing this reality is real talk and not B.S. its still hard to believe that I feel like we just talked to you yesterday.
I know you'll have a good sleep, for eternity.
I love you!
