The Reason i hate me is because you loved me.
The Reason i cry is because you made me laugh.
The Reason i wish it never happened is because you said it would never end.
The Reason i lie awake at nights is because you are no longer there to talk to.
You are the reason i never want to risk it again
you are the reason i can not trust anyone again
you are the reason i can not even look at myself ever again
yet it is my fault for ever letting it happen
yet it is my fault for believing your every word
yet it is my fault for you breaking my trust
you blame me but know it is not my fault.
you yell at me when you know you should be yelling at yourself.
you tell me im the reason we can not have a conversation but yet your the one who never returns my calls and messages.
but maybe just maybe if you keep saying it over and over again i may just start to believe it, you will make it all disappear, and i will once again fall back into it,
loving you
caring for you
listening to you
taking the pain you cause me
waiting hours on end for you to call back
