What i lost

I know its not good
I know it is bad
to not let go of something
that i had once had

i don't know why
it lingers in my mind
something so good
that again i must find

it will come someday
so i wont shed a tear
sometimes i don't miss it
because i know that its near

it makes life a joy
to know we happened
but i can't stand the pain
of my senses unsharpened