I hate loving you

You spilled the secrets
then you told a lie
but the worst time was
when we said goodbye

its always been a pain
in the back of my head
because what you are to me
is no more then dead

when i cry so hard that it hurts
and my tears run dry when i weep
your always somewhere in my mind
so i force myself to sleep

but I'm still caught motionless
sprawled on the floor
i cry when I'm hating you
but i hate loving you more

and i know ill wait
until the days come through
and I'm sure ill find someone
that ill love even more then you