My Poem

Bloods too real to be so kind
lethargic energizer in my mind
i twitch a little, blow a kiss
I'm ready to deny i did this

i hide inside your dead wolfs heart
wait for these words to tear me apart
fvck black sheep's, so scared to die
a sudden brutal acid cry

i glanced up so surprised to see
the things i knew could never be
and shot to the air i saw them rise
circling around me they fall like flies

poisoned thoughts make overdose sink
never again will i open and think
i lie on the bed, frozen to the ceiling
trying so hard just to lose this sudden feeling

think Ive gone too far, you say
but you wouldn't care anyway
addicts live like your kings die
i wouldn't even want to try

to be like you, to be like them
you'll never need me once again
and still i stare and still i see
these things that never could be me

turned out, they said, that i was wrong
drugs are bad i don't belong
mommy gave up, daddy died
i watched my sister as she cried

and through the pain i bled and bled
hoping you would want me dead
watched the stars before the jump
finally running off this dump

i hated you for what you did
I'm tripping off this miracle weed
remembering just what you said
i wish that you would want me dead

stop. wait. I'm coming back
don't let these damn demons attack
stop. wait. just let me in
i promise i wont do it again

drop the leaves and climb the trees
I'm sucking on these worthless bees
the honeys sour like your lips
take a hit and bite my hips

i watch you cum i see me go
hidden nights through your window
your little slave and you're addicted
bet you couldn't have predicted

junkies love- a chemical reaction
the red-light wh0re: physical attraction
I'm waking up in strangers beds
never seen so many heads

but I'll light up and take a sip
watch you bang her as i trip
wait for me. tell me you care
i know. i see. i can feel you there

the clock keeps turning, time's running out
you smell like pvssy, make me shout
my eyes light up and you light the flame
i cant believe I'm gonna do it again...

-i decided to change the title because ive been having trouble with a title for this poem...but its kind of my poem for now so there : p