Now That You're Not Here

[Partnership with Richard Chu]

Can someone in my life
tell me how it would feel if God had
taken that one special person in their lives
away from them less than a second?
That they could've counted.
Tell me why you would have to take that bullet for me,
you shouldn't have been the one to leave,
it should have been me.
Now I am wishing that I made truce with my enemies.
Cause you would have still been here with me.
Now who do I look to,
to give me my needs?
Not that you're not here with me,
just looking above, giving it my all.
Now that the times that I have to spend alone
Times been dragging me from upon the head
Pushing and pulling from the future ahead.
The lost of the spot, that no one will replace
you stole something from me, that no longer run in the same pace.
And also something that no other person can have
I gave you my love,
and you gave in return the little tiny warmth of your hugs
that will never be upon in this world.
I can no longer breathe.
Not I look back in time,
and reminisce on how things use to be,
how we were together ever so happily.
Now I just hope that you're up there resting peacefully.
And I just want you to know,
my love for you,
Will always cease to be,
so baby,
Wait for me,
because I'll be up there with you shortly.

It isn't easy losing the one you love,
But I just got to keep in mind,
That you're up there watching above,
Looking out for me,
And waiting for me,
So we'd finally be together again,
Like how it once use to be.
But it was harder for me, to let you go
then having you sit right beside me
when I could've told you every single word
that you wanted to hear.
Now that is too late, wanting to go back in time
to drag every detail that I was meant to be said.

What is the meaning of life, if you weren't there?
Thanking God for letting you walk in my life, to be my love
but now he did something that I wish and pray he never had.
Is by taking that love and spirit of yours away.
Now I am over here trying to live without you,
and trying to figure out,
How in the world I am going to live without my boo.
Living with all these regrets,
Should have told you that I loved you every single day,
But not it's too later,
There's nothing more I can say,
I can only hope and pray,
That we'll be together again someday.
So I guess it's true what they say,
you never really know what you've got till it's gone.
I just wish you didn't have to go away.
Cause now that you've left,
Things will never be okay.
Without you,
Life will never be the same.