Something to Say

I can't ignore this
This love in my life
But you are gone from me
But the thought of you lingers
And this feeling of being without
Saying I don't love you
Is a lie I can't live with anymore
I told myself
I'll live without you
But I can't
I don't want to
Because from the waking moment of my life
To the end of the day I care
About you
And everything that you do
But I have been out of your life for so long
That I am a ghost now
Just a memory
Of the past
That will never happen again
To leave and never look back
But I will not
Because you are a part of my heart
And I can't live in pieces
So I think about you
Your beautiful eyes
The noise in my head
Of my life and my friends
They blur with their problems
And the problems of my life
So I deal with them
And leave you behind
Just to try to find you again
And be lost once more
I can't do this anymore
I need you the most
I need you here with me
For me to love
To care
But you are not
So I go in circles again
Just to be lost within
I am still here
With so much to say
But little I can do
Yet you heard this before
I shouldn't have wrote this
It's not something I usually do
But I did
Because I'm hurt
And I don't know why
I shouldn't
I can't
But I do
And you know I do
No poem can say
What I have to say to you
So I look for you
In my dreams
In my life
Yet you are not there
And I am not here
So I am lost
Lost without you
Because I love you
So you bring me to my knees
Truly only you could do that to me
So I admit
As I picture your beautiful eyes
I am wrong to leave you
I am wrong to not talk to you
When I truly want to
To be lost in the truth of my lies
And to try to forget
That you are the beauty of my life
And to think that I can handle this
But all I did is ruined your heart
And broken mine
I didn't listen to you
And now I am all alone
I am tired of my friends
I am done with this life
Because it will never be the same
Without you
So I am sorry
Would you forgive me?
I hope you do
Because in the end
I just want you to know
As each day passes
Countless of times
When the sun ends another day
You are all I truly think of
The only one I think of everyday