The questions with in me

Who is this person within me?
Who is this stranger that crushes my dreams?
Who is this evil trying to rip through my skin?

Why can't I breath?
Why do I bleed?
Why can't my wrists heal completely without the evidence of my stupidity?

I want to be ME.
I want to be able to dream.
I want to forget life's cruel twists.'
I want to wake up and see reality without a slap on my face.
I want to bring out the true person within me.

A person without anger,
Without desperation or depression.
A person without pain that is driven by her past.

But what if this is my true form?
What if I've been trying to hide it all along?
What if suffering is all I can have?
How can I hide without finding myself?

I want to dry these tears that fall with every thought.
I want to be able to smile without hurting inside.
I want to heal and defeat FEAR.

I know life goes on whether I'm ready or not,
I know days can be tough but if giving up is the only way then why not die?

I want to forget.
I want to smile.
I want to dream without fear lurking in my shadow.