Confusion

I'm confused about what i believe in.
i don't know if i believe in love anymore.
i don't have faith, ive lost all trust
and all i seem to do is push people away.
i don't know whats wrong with me
i don't believe because nothing ever works out
my heart has been broken and used that i am
scared there is nothing left to give
people who could love me for me and could possibly
change these views i push away and don't give a chance
maybe it'll just take one special person to help through this. but what if that one special person doesn't come along?
where will i be then?