What Has Changed?

I used to be perfect
Or so I thought
One who would win
Any fight I fought

I was just me
I had no other fear
Who cares what others think
I am who I appear

So what happened to me?
Why am I this way?
Wasn't he the one?
Oh why didn't he stay...

It wasn't what he did
And nothing he ever said
It is what, in my life, that lacked
The unknown tears that were shed

I couldn't live without him
But living with him hurt
He was never the one
Who you'd walk to for comfort

I'm supposed to be me
But now I cant
I'm left to worry
About surgery, an implant

I used to be unstoppable,
But now I am so aware
I cant stop the feeling
Of what people think when they stare

So what has changed?
Why did this happen to me?
It wasn't my fault, I promise
But I cant stop to think of what could be...

I really loved the one before
But that didn't quiet last
I truly loved the one I had
But now that's in the past...

Cant he love me for me
The one that he needs
I know it wouldn't have worked anyways
Its just my dreams like to exceed

Cant I be the friend
To help another get freed
The one that has the shoulder
Not the one in need

So my heart says that I need him
But my head says "no"
My heart cant stand a life without
But my heart says "that was a long time ago"