Be a dear

Fixated on the worlds demise
lurking about in the darkest place in my mind is where it all began
a quiet calm takes over as these hands cover your mouth
gasping for your breath. hot salty tears trickle down.
the fear is such a rush. all the pain and shame placed upon me is about to surface
pathetic
be a dear
hush hush now
that sharp pain is a knife in your neck. twist and turn. now its out
just like a fish out of water
your soon to be lifeless body is flopping about
soon this will all be over
you are now a part of me. so very happy to be the last eyes you look into
be a dear
towering above my latest
tonight i will rest well
this night has put my mind at ease
honestly though.....
one is never enough. it's just a tease