Falling away...

How can this be?
What you have done to me?
Our friendship has ended,
My heart cannot be mended.

When it was time to be real,
you stabbed me in the back,
So what's the deal?
Now you see I won't attack.

For once you see what you have done,
you'll know our friendship is gone!
Who can I trust?
When I love someone it won't be lust.

I am not the one to tell you what to do,
I have problems just like you.
It's hard dealing with everyones problems,
It make me want to solve them.

When I look at myself,
I don't see my problems.
All I can see is your problems.
I do care but it's so hard to speak.

When you never listen.

Are you like me and hear voices?
The voices saying all my choices!
Everything that Ive done has been painful.
I didn't even put up a fight, any night.

I guess I was right to say,
That I am in pain everyday,
Lonely, cold, with no one to hold.
Do I have anything to hold on to?

I know my spelling is bad.
Just wait till you have a tear in your eye.
Then you'll see why it's so hard.
You all wonder why I look so sad.

It's not your fault it's my own.
Everything I did was my choice.
So now I hope that people will hear my voice.
I'm not pretending, I have grown.