I can sit here forever just hoping for an answer, but what will that ever do? I've been sitting here for over two months wondering if he's the one. He's so great to me, he seems to truly love me. But I can't seem to get all the other men I've had in my life out of my mind. He's the most constant thing in my life, his feeling for me never fade, only do they strengthen. But I'm so confused about my feelings for him. I can spend the rest of my life with him wondering the whole time if it was a mistake. All my walls he wants to break down but the last man I let break them down made me put them back up twice as strong. What if he does the same? What if he's only looking for one thing and once I give it to him, he leaves? I'm so afraid of the love I feel for him is truly one way! Though he's constantly reminding me how he'll never leave, I'm so afraid he will because of these walls I won't let down. Everyone I've talked to about this tells me to let my walls down because they can see in his eyes when he looks at me that he loves me. How they would give anything for a guy to look at them that way. But I'm afraid once I tell him every one of my secrets he'll be ashamed to be with me. But how can I ever know if I never tell him. True love is so hard to find and I don't want to let it go, and I don't want to do anything to jeopardize it. I can sit here forever just hoping for an answer...
