A Lullaby for a Broken heart

I know u warned me of this coming end but I still refused to believe that u and I would ever have a closure it just felt so real and sweet like for once this dream has come true and I am free to live in it with no reason to wake up. You were something new to me something that I haven't experienced before or maybe was too afraid to experience. But with you somehow I never felt the fear you were always too near though the distance between us could measure the earth and moon and next to you I was left breathless and my heart would stop beating to hold this moment forever and never let it pass by for this is where I belonged and this is where I chose to be. You held my hand in yours and took me to another world with one touch of magic. If only I had the power to stop time and live here with you forever after all in dreams everything can happen. But reality calls back and brings me back to the truth where you're only a fantasy in my heart and mind of what I once used to have. I've lost you once and twice and thrice but somehow you kept coming back until that day you decided to leave forever without looking back or leaving a trace for me to follow you left me in a dream that you've awaken from and went back to your old love. Now I wish that I had the power to rewind time and go back to the way it used to be where I once had you only for me. Sorry but I can't seem to find a cure for this ache that grows deeper and stings harder every day. I know it is not your fault but who else do I have to blame? Its you all the time the only thing that is left alive in me and now your gone and am left broken in this cruel world. The end came so quickly that I still play it back in my mind every night wishing that I could erase it from my memory but it hurts more and more than the first time the moon has left the sky without you by my side. I blame you for making me fall in love but I got to thank you for healing me from my stupid obsession with it and so am moving on now and learning to face this world without love in my heart, just the will to carry on in await for something that is meant to be something that will last farther the earth and moon farther than all the skies and stars and beyond some childish love.