Growing up has been so hard

Growing up has been so hard,
My life, my fears, come back
there haunting me.
I love my sisters thats no doubt,
it so hard to stay strong when I'm the one they love to talk about.

They love to make me mad,
get me down and make me sad.
They like to see me when i cry
it makes them live to see my eyes don't stay dry.

My sister are the world to me,
but its hard to sit and let them torture me...
I try so hard to let it go,
but i have so much pain inside you just don't know.
My younger sister as you see,
loves to put down my faith and my dreams.

I tell her i love her
but she doesn't even care,
she thinks I'm the one who just wont always be there.
I wish i could make her see
that she is the world to me.

My older sister, another part to this story.
Loves to join in on my younger sisters glory.
Its a game to them to put me down in shame,
They say i am an embarrassing part of our family,
I wish there was something to do to make them love me.

I stand there and stay strong,
I don't do anything wrong.
I try to let them know,
That even though they hurt me i will always love them,
No one will take there place
because some how i always feel safe...

I have learned to forgive them
every single time,
I never hold it against them, no lie
I just want to be some one
they learn to accept
Maybe one day they might be able to say
These five simple words
i always wished they could say
and when they have told me
tears will come to my eyes
because im waiting for the day

This will soon come
I just need to believe
This is what i really want to hear,
And in my heart it will stay
They will soon say
"I will love you forever"