Our Secret Place

Looking out the window at you
As you play outside.
I watch as in your pay-house
You run and hide.

You've got all your teddies
And all your dolls with you,
And just like a mother,
You tell then what to do.

You love to play 'House'
Even though it makes your Mommy cry,
Knowing that your Daddy
Left without saying 'goodbye'.

Suddenly you run inside
Your knees bloody and sore.
I sit you down and clean you up
So it won't hurt anymore.

Holding you tight,
I kiss you on your head.
You look up at me with those sad green eyes,
"Mommy, am I really dead?"

I can't deny it anymore.
I can no longer lie.
"I'm sorry, my baby, but at the time
I thought it right to let you die".

"I did it because I loved your Dad
And I thought that he loved me.
I thought that him and I
Would be together for eternity".

"When I fell pregnant
And he found out,
He told me to 'get rid of it'.
He didn't want you - there's no doubt".

"Sam, I didn't want you
To grow up without a dad.
I hope you will forgive me
But I thought it was the only choice I had".

These tears begin now
To sting my eyes.
You look up at me,
"Mommy, please don't cry".

"I may be young,
But I do understand".
You smile gently
And hold my hand.

"Here in our secret place
We can still be happy.
Don't worry, Mommy,
I like it just you and me".

Copyright©JosieWentzel24February2008