You Never Called Me That Night

My dear friend,
It is the anniversary of your death
I think about you every day,
I wonder why it ended up this way

I'm sorry I was not there that night,
I could of tried to stop you with all my might.
You never called me to come over that day,
I asked people why, but they said you didn't say
I think of you every minute,
Wishing that when they found you there wasn't much of a limit

I got a call that night from your mom,
She told me to pray to god
She didn't tell me all the details,
But I knew it was something, it was a big deal
In this night I got another call,
I was told to come to the hospital and that's all

Thoughts rushed through my head,
Something has happened, oh I hope to god that your not dead
When I arrived I saw your mom,
Tears were in her eyes
She told me how you took you life,
Time had stopped,
Things had changed.
I couldn't come up with a word to say

I thought I was dreaming ,
I thought it was a6 nightmare
I always remembered what you said,
"No matter what happens to me always stay strong,
Never let something bad make everything wrong"
I tried so hard to stay strong,
But i couldn't hold back tears,
I can't believe your gone.

You never called me that night,
I could of made it different, it would of never been a police sight.
I remember everything we use to do,
I pray your happy now, don't worry though I'll see you soon.

I pray every night that things have changed,
That you don't feel the same Way you did,
One day I will be back right next to you.
But until that day I look up to the clouds,
And I always wonder where I went wrong.

I was never sure if this was ever my fault.

* Rest In Peace Jason, I Will Always Remember You And You Stay In My Heart Forever*