Here I sit
Waiting for a phne call that will never come
Hoping to hear your voice
Watching out my window for a vehicle that will not drive past
I never believed I could love again
Never thought I would miss you as much as I do
I lay on my bed thinking of the nights I held you
Close my tearful eyes and dream of your touch
If only I hadn't screwed up,
Things would be different
I would still have you
And now,
Every waking moment is spent by thinking of you
I no longer have any desire to go outside of my own home
To me,
Happiness no longer exists
You were my everything,
My life, my soul, my thoughts and dreams
My love
Now,
I feel lost in this life without you
I no longer feel anything other than pure heartbreak
I am confused
Why did this happen?
What did I do?
I wish I could change my actions
Reverse this situation
And hold you close
But I can't
And all because I screwed up
