Sitting here
Holding the razor blade
Staring at my reflection in the mirror through tear filled eyes
Trying to hide within my own soul
Wanting to avoid the hurt I have caused myself
Why did I walk away?
Couldn't I have tried harder?
She meant the world to me
And I let her go without putting up a fight
My heart aches so much
I'm not quite sure how I am supposed to handle this
I have screwed myself out of happiness
I have lost all that is precious and dear to me
And why?
Because I am hurting?
Because she made a mistake and I am too stubborn to forgive and forget?
But how am I supposed to fight for someone who pushes me away?
I can no longer breathe
The lonely darkness is quickly closing in on my twisted heart
I cannot do this
Can't possibly survive without her comforting presence
The way she is able to joke and hold me together when things are not alright
And yet,
Here I am
Blurry eyed and killing myself
Falling apart with each passing second
Cowering within myself
Letting her go
