Can i?? or cant i??

You broke my heart once again
said those hateful words that pierce so deep
again and again we go
through this same painful killing show

i want to move on
CAN I? how do i?
you held my heart so tight
will you ever let go?
I'm not quite sure i want you to
Ive never had to live without you
close to me you've always been
you became my greatest and best friend

can i do this anymore?
can i take the agony of seeing my heart lying
shattered on the floor
pieces of us lying there
untouched..broken
those bittersweet memories
wasted and lost

Ive got to move on
the tiny pieces cant take it anymore
i want to have the will to pick them up
but i need the strength to put them together
is it in me?
me.. who is that anymore? i don't know me without you.
you were what made me..well..me..
now that your gone
how long will i be able to stand on my own
you held me up but at the same time let me fall

i cant take it any longer
Ive got to find a way to make my resistance to you stronger
i can do it i hope
all i have to do is believe
i want to move on
lord make me strong
strong enough to walk away from someone i love so dear
here goes nothing..but yet everything..
will i be able to live without you
who knows
not me... not you..
we'll see now want we
i just hope that some way, some day, some how
i can search through this lost girl
and find the remnance of the me that once used to be
here i go
all on my own
lord please help me be strong!