What it means to be....

What it means to be this person that I am
Is really not so simple, or easy to understand
I think about ways that are not easily received
And every time I look away my thoughts seem to cease
So I'm telling you this now, I don't think that I'm ok
Because everytime I wander, my mind drifts away
What it means to be, crazy, maybe someone else
What it feels like to be less
Less than you ever wanted to be
Not what you wanted the world to truely see
I feel this way alot of the time
Watching the clock tick, longing to die
I don't know how or why this is
I don't recall the fun or bliss
I get this feeling in my head, spinning around, deep with dread
I lose control, I cannot see, what's truely going on with me
So this is what it means to be
Crazy, physcotic, depressed, like me.....