Push

by anachic   Feb 27, 2008


It's a hazy fog I'm in
Since this started
A dream world I have entered
Bliss
Endless conversations
So open so honest
Just what I wanted
What I need
And I receive
All I could ask for
But my wall has been broken
You broke through
You got down to my core
So I run
And I push you away
I push so hard
I say those destructive words
Like poison
Scared of being damaged
And hurt
And left
I am so sorry my love
This is what I do
This is who I am
No more explanations
I just can't
Explain this mess
That's me
I just can't tell you
The reason
Why I'll push and push
Until you start running
I can't
All I know is
I dont want to lose you
Not another person
Because of my ignorance
Forgive me my love
You mean the world
And more to me
I won't ever let you go
Or let you down
Just stay a little while
And you'll see
The mess I am now
Will be worth it in the end

**I'm already ruining my new relationship that I am in. I am pushing away my boyfriend. And he means so much to me, he is everything I have ever wanted. But he has gotten deep down to my core and I get so scared. So I do things to push him away. Why? Because I am so afraid to get hurt again. Sooo afraid. But I just can't let myself ruin another good thing**

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  • 16 years ago

    by xxSilentlyScreamingxx

    This is really good :) pretty powerful stuff, nice wording.

    just take it slowly yeh, im sure it'll get easier. and i hope you stay with your boyfriend, im sure he will understand :)

    Amy x

  • 16 years ago

    by pLeASeTakEMyHeArT

    Awww, this is real. No one can speak that deep honestly cause, afraid to open the truth and not show to be afraid. You just hold yourself so much, take time, the more patient got with you, let yourself get close little bit. Time running better, the patient feeling slowly. If your boyfriend understand what you have been through, then he will wait for YOU TO BE OEPN WHENEVER YOU'RE READY TO STOP PUSHING!

    This is so good, I love it!