Alone again

No one could understand me or the things that I do.
just a lost soul searching for that one to make me feel whole
everything happens for a reason. the answers we seek are in the very questions we ask.
so in love I was. But a constant battle of wits, and things that needed to be said were never
I know just what I have done in this life to put me where I am. Just wanted to be loved is all
once again I have been left standing alone.
will i ever find the love I had again? I doubt it.
while I had it, it was the best feeling ever
It is gone now. I will hurt, and grieve. this is the way. will it change i ask myself. NEVER
wishing, wanting to hear his voice next to my window. calling my name. wanting me
No it will not happen. all I have left are memories of love so deep and beautiful
by no means am I perfect or beautiful, or thin, or good enough, or pretty enough
no one will want me in the way that I want and need to be wanted
I am at the age that most others are married and content. not me though
I can honestly say that for just a few months I was so truly happy
now it is over and I will do what I can to be numb to all the pain
so much easier said than done.
life is a challenge. I must fight for a life that can and will end at any time
I don't want to die alone. this just seems to be the way it was all meant to be
my body is so weak. i keep it to myself. Soon enough I will pass
for all that i have touched. Please do not forget me